And not only this, but we also exult in our tribulations, knowing that tribulation brings about perseverance; and perseverance, proven character; and proven character, hope; and hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out within our hearts through the Holy Spirit who was given to us. For while we were still helpless, at the right time Christ died for the ungodly. (Rom 5:3-6)

Let not those who hope in you be put to shame through me, O Lord GOD of hosts; let not those who seek you be brought to dishonor through me, O God of Israel. (Psalm 69:6)

Sunday, August 23, 2009

Midlife and Holiness Pusuit

Here go a few rambling thoughts.....

Today I opened my mouth and let flow part of my hearts desire. I desire to know God. To do such I want to be one of those worshipers whom He desires, whom worship in spirit and in truth. For this to happen, I need to be holy.

Granted, I try to be holy. I often fail. I am often very proactive about it, but also I find moments of not persevering but being rather, caviler.

I simply want to see God. I want to know His grace rather than trying to live by law. Not that the law is bad, it shows our need for God. But I hope to take a full year of purposely being sanctified in this area with a wide eyed wonder of God. Oh may I be a new wineskin that He would fill me.

I have a lot of books, but where is the heart knowledge? So I am taking God up on an offer in an important way, I am going to be very proactive about seeking Him with all my heart. He has promised that if we seek Him with all our heart we will find Him. From experience I know I can not do this in my own strength, so I am doing two things to seek Him by His strength.

First, cutting off all hindrances, and setting up stumbling blocks to them. Ie keeping up with an "Iron Sharpens Iron relationships", especially with The Wife. This also means saying no to anything that would diminish my heart toward God. Not settling for the good that will do but seeking God's best.

Second, I am making "how to lists", I have had enough of self help. But what I simply plan to do is go to God first every morning. (Yes I am sure our family will have the unannounced ER visit or four again)

But I simply want to follow and end each day being God centered. Her again are a list of questions to ask myself, and yet not a template for preformance. I want to be holy seeking God and His grace rather than myself dealing in law exclusively.

So walk with me these next 365 days as I blog about the majesty of God in the pursuit of the Holy One.

Morning Thoughts
• What must I praise God for?
• What are the battles facing me today?
• What temptations do I know that I am going to face?
• Who today needs prayer?
• What failures of yesterday do I need to confront today?
• Whom would the Lord have me share the gospel with?
• What does my memory verse mean?
• Whom today am I to encourage showing compassion too?

Evening Thoughts
• How has God revealed Himself during the day?
• What empowerment did God give me today in victories?
• How shall I praise Him, giving Him the glory lest I think it as being by my own merit?
• What areas have I failed in?
• Of what must I repent?
• What unexpected blessing came today? How have I shared this news?
• Did I praise Him, counting all things joy, even the disasters and torments of life?
• To whom did I show compassion?
• What decisions were made by waiting upon God for direction?
• How did the scripture reading from this morning compel me to walk with Christ?
• What have I complained about?
• Have I participated in gossip?

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